There is a precious, 5 year old, little man who has proved to be a continual source of joy since the first day we met. I've had the blessing of being able to spend many days caring for him: from witnessing his first steps to watching the way a smile would often and easily take over his face, making his eyes disappear. It was with bittersweet feelings that I reflected on the sweet moments leading up to this final night babysitting him, and as we were getting him ready for bed, I gently reminded him that this was our last time together. He stopped what he was doing to look straight into my eyes, put his hands on my face and said, "Because God has something good for you, right?". The way his voice tenderly portrayed a deep confidence in our Father caused my eyes to sting, tears threatening to break through. I was reminded of Mark 10:15 and better understood what Jesus meant when he said, "Truly, I say to you, whoever does not receive the Kingdom of God like a child shall not enter it."
God is ushering me to a place where I am continually on my knees. And my faith is that of a child.
Never have I been so aware of my need for Christ in every area of my life. Without faith that He will provide for those needs, I would be empty and hopeless, so I praise God for the way that He sustains and strengthens my heart each day. Some days though, it feels that there is a giant before me as I prepare to leave. In my discouragement, a dear friend directed me back to Christ and shared a quote from Hudson Taylor, missionary to China:
I have found that there are three stages in every great work of God: first, it is impossible, then it is difficult, then it is done.
God, teach me more about what it means to be fully dependent on you. Increase my faith...like a child's.
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